Welcome to my journal.
If you drop by, say 'hey', cause I love befriending new peoples.
Working on a way to get all my fanfictions on here, as that is what brought me to this site in the forst place.
Till then, enjoy my amazing ability to talk crap. I do keep this open for everyone, but I do still like to know what people think of what I write.
So please, comment and let me know what you think.
Cheers.
Sue xx

• 08:19 Thats me on the train. And my cousin is goin 2 the football in aberdeen, lol #
• 08:45 I like getting the train at this time, its quiet. Bar the cowdenbeath n lochgelly lot. #
• 10:23 Eugh. Annoying kids listenin to dance music are beside me on the train. #

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• 01:02 tickets booked for Aberdeen on Saturday. whooo. Need to get train at 8am though #
• 01:12 @AllieCupcake I'm getting them as well. Its annoying that they're now actually tweeting people. Grrr #
• 01:22 @gc_luver890 Aberdeen in Scotland, lol. My friends are there, its a birthday weekend :) #
• 01:25 @DCMABNIKKI that sounds dirty. haha #
• 01:35 Watching Death Note again. On Episode 16 #
• 01:54 Aww Matsuda. What a gimp. haha #
• 02:00 night tweeters. I need to get up early tomorrow to pick up tickets and stuff. Ciao #
• 12:41 Still feeling shit. But went and bought new jeans and picked up my tickets for tomorrow. Trying to make this feeling go away -.- its not #

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And I finally am feeling a tad better.
*wonder if that has anything to do with the fact its pay day today*

I still have the focus of a 5 year old with ADD, lol. But at least I was able to get up today, which is the first day since Tuesday. I think it had to do with the fact I had to pick up my tickets for Aberdeen this morning, so it totally cheered me up. I also paid back Paul and Mary and that made me feel a lot better. Also went and bought Gemma and Sharon's birthday presents. I bought Sharon some Britney Spears perfume, and Gemma a Golden Retriever model. So that made me feel a lot better. But I think that's the effect of just spending money, lol.

But overall, I have been happier today. Which is good. That Death Note Meme I posted is about as much work as I got done though. Well that, and beating my Bejewelled high score. I. Am. So. Sad. lol

For a Friday night it is quite quiet in work. I am able to sit and blog between calls. Which is just odd because I never usually get to do that half way through my shift. lol.

Gonna go and get a take out tonight. Hmmm....fried rice and curry sauce and prawn crackers. I am so greedy, lol

Who's your favorite Death Note character(s)?
Misa-Misa, L, Matsuda & Ryuk

02. What is your favorite pairing(s)?
Misa and Matsuda.

03. Are you a Death Note yaoi or hentai fan?
A bit new to that side of things, so only time will tell.

04. Ever cosplayed Death Note character? If so, who, where and how many times?
No. Would love to cosplay as Ryuk, as I'd like to see how I'd manage that.

05. List your collection of Death Note junk and merchandise, if any:
Not alot yet. A Misa 'you can use me all you want' shirt. It has Rem on the back saying 'if you hurt her, I'll kill you'

06. Have you ever felt that you were destined to be with a Death Note character?
?!? No really.

07. Near/Matt or Mello/Near?
Mello/ Near is quite fun. I like to think of the rivalry

08. Light/Misa or L/Misa?
L/Misa for the sheer fact that I find Light too devious (I know L is too, but...) I like L's reaction when Misa kisses him on the cheek.

09. Did you think Matt's death was fair?
I dunno. I guess death is never fair. *shrugs*

10. Why did you think Mello helped Near in the end?
Its like why L asked Light to help the task force, they say 'keep your friends close and your enemies closer'.

11. Do you support Kira's theory in making the world better by using the Death Note and killing off the bad people?
I do think some people need to die, but its where you place the line on what is right and what is wrong.

12. Your favorite Wammy kid?
Near.

13. Are you Pro-Kira or Anti-Kira?
I don't know. Sometimes I think that something like kira is needed in the world, but then I think it would be just another weapon that would be abused.

14. Have you seen all Death Note episodes so far?
Honestly, no. :/ I read the manga ages ago, but finally decided to watch the manga a few weeks ago.

15. Have you read all the chapters so far?
Yes

16. Do you believe Misa has ADD?
lol. No I think she is just a positive thinker, and people have interpreted that the wrong way.

17. Sub or dub?
Subs. The Japanese voices are better than the American dub. In the dub, I can't help thinking that Light sounds like adult Simba from the Lion King. haha

18. Pro-Misa or Anti-Misa?
pro-misa. She is the much needed tonic when things seem pretty bleak. Always a ray of sunshine.

19. Lidner = Near's side or Mello's?
I don't really know -.-

20. Do you even know who BB is?
A little. Not too much though

21. L = Sexy beast or Ugly nerd?
Neither. He is like too much of a pretty boy for me though. I couldn't trust him

22. Which character would be the best cross-dresser?
Light, cause I see him as a bit of a girl *shrugs*

23. Mikami = Weird or Awesome?
XD Both

24. Which character would be the best OOC?
I think that I'd like to see Matsuda OOC. Only cause He is my favourite out of the task force

25. Do you like Death Note fanfics?
Never read too much tbh. Its all slash I read between Light and L, but thats cause I have writen slash in other genres, like GC.

26. Do you write Death Note fanfics?
Not yet, maybe soon, if I can get inspired enough

27. Do you like lemons?
No really

28. Do your parents know about the Death Note characters?
No. My parents think its stupid kids stuff, so no. Tina, my younger sister is a fan of Ryuk and is currently reading through the Manga, after seeing the movie.

29. Have you watched the Death Note Abridged Series?
No. Is it bad I've never heard of it

30. Have you seen the Death Note fanflashes?
nope

31. Have you ever gotten someone else hooked on Death Note?
My sister. lol. First ever manga thing she's liked

32. Have you ever been drawing Death Note in school and has someone recognized it?
I have tried, but most fail.

33. Have you ever been in class drawing Death Note and the teacher came up to you and said 'WTF is this?'
No. They pretty much ignore me *shrugs*

34. Has Death Note affected your school life and grades?
No. Its good for trying to get me motivated again

35. Are you broke thanks to Death Note?
Mope

36. Do you want to own a Death Note?
I would like one, but I'd be to scared to use it

37. Do you wish the series had ended differently?
No, no point in wishing for something to end differently, when there is nothing i can do about it

38. Do you draw Death Note fanart? If so, count how many there are in your gallery?
I try. Nothing is good enough to be put anywhere yet

39. Is Mello still sexy even though half of his face is scarred by burns?
Ermm...maybe if i found him sexy in the first place, lol

40. Do you have a Death Note OC?
Nope

41. Looking back at some of your answers, do you think Death Note has taken over your life?
sometimes. Its addictive, and when you start reading or watching it you don't want to stop. Which is what you want from any series.

• 11:09 Is working from home again today. #
• 11:18 Selena Gomez has masses of hair. What? I'm just sayin' #
• 11:33 @officialTila try switching it off, then switch it on pressing f12. That hopefully restores it to factory settings #
• 11:39 Happy Thanksgiving American peoples. #
• 13:26 train is gonna cost £40 return. :/ #
• 13:34 whats o2 Litmus?? Just been sent an invite. #
• 13:49 sitting watching Death note. having home day, part 2 #
• 13:53 animefreak.tv #
• 14:01 @CallMeMrsMADDEN lol. I know what you mean. I am loyal to Mr Aaron. Miss that boy #
• 14:04 @CallMeMrsMADDEN I like Dean, and I had no issues with Chris, but Aaron was in the GC i fell in love with. #
• 14:12 twitpic.com/r08o3 - @CallMeMrsMADDEN @DCMAKimberly Aaron Escolopio #
• 14:14 twitpic.com/r08u9 - I searched Aaron Good Charlotte on Google, and this came up. Man, Aaron's no half changed. haha #
• 14:46 @DCMAxQueen I wish we celebrated it. I could do with a holiday *nods* #
• 20:39 @TonyLovato have you just decided to confuse everyone. lol. Scotland is missing some Tony love :( #
• 21:00 @benjaminmadden Im thankful for you, for saving my life. Seriously. Thank you. #
• 21:23 Happy Thanksgiving to all my AmericaLand friends. xx love you all #
• 21:30 post-depression hyperness is setting in. Rawr #
• 22:07 @camaxwell was it good. I wish I had went, but couldn't get time off work. :( #
• 22:17 45 minutes.....then home. Payday in under 2 hours. XD yay #

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Homeday number 2.

Pretty much for the same reasons as yesterday.

Again, I just could not pull myself out my bed. I felt so shit. But by this time, i'm kinda ok, and I don't get quite so stressed at work. Although I was completely buring up yesterday. I had to go to the bathroom to cool down. I was so hot, it was like my face was burning. And I was getting these looks, because it was obviously just me who was feeling like that. But what am I supposed to do? Just sit at work not focusing on the task in hand.

Anyway, still have zero ability at getting work done, and I feel totally useless. I mean I get some doodles done at work, but nothing of any worth. Which annoys me more than anything.

So been sitting looking at train tickets for Saturday. Its gonna be a total pain getting this sorted out. At the most though, its gonna cost £40. but I have all my bills and stuff to pay tomorrow also. Ugh. Money never lasts very long these days.

• 14:26 OFFICIAL CHILDREN IN NEED 2009 SINGLE - ANIMATED MEDLEY VIDEO - ... www.youtube.com/watch?v=e2FdKbCGATQ #
• 14:48 The Muppets- Bohemian rhapsody is immense. #
• 14:51 The Muppets for Christmas number 1. Boycott X Factor #
• 15:15 Facebook group. Muppets for Xmas No.1, boycott X Factor. tinyurl.com/ye4n26a #
• 15:23 @DCMAxQueen *Hug* lol #GCfansgetit #
• 15:26 @mattjwillis pftt. No they don't. You lie #
• 15:50 @mattjwillis That guy is the coolest of the cool. I'm jealous. #
• 16:30 Is away to work. *sigh* #
• 17:41 At work. :/ I suppose money has to come from somewhere #

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Yeah, I skipped College today. There was 2 reasons for it.

1) I am skint and my bus pass ran out yesterday, so physically can't afford college, unless I chance it with an out of date bus pass. Which I don't want to do, cause they may just take the pass off me, including my college card. Which they have done before.

2) I was very, very upset yesterday. Im hoping I am just 'dipping' because my meds have been changed, but I dont think thats it. I was so close to phoning the Samartians because I just wanted to throw myself of something and end it all. Pretty severe, when you think that the medication is supposed to stop me feeling like that. But after I blogged, I went to the toilets and had a cry.

*sigh*
Anyways. I lay in bed this morning reading Death Note, and feeling sorry for myself. When I am like that, I am better just lying, locked away from everyone, cause I'll just say something stupid.

I still haven't done any work, although I sat and drew at my work last night. I say I draw, it wasn't anything spectacular, but it was all I could do from walking out of my work last night, and never going back. Whats bugging me, is that how am I supposed to make sure I am doing everything for a customer, when the call center manager is on my back telling me to hurry up and get on the next call. If I need to email another department, I can't. And that is not helping me at all, when I am feeling this stressed.


Just focusing on Saturday, where I'll be up in Aberdeen with two of my oldest friends, Sharon and Gemma. Its Gemma's birthday night out. I'm just looking to clear my head, so am really looking forward to it. Its kind of like the light at the end of the tunnel. Reminds me, I need to get Gemma and Sharon bday things on Friday, when I get paid.

• 00:48 Test Icicles- Boa Vs Python #
• 00:54 Hanson- 'I will Come To You ' Takes me back to me in school. lol #
• 09:00 haha read @officialTila's version of Twilight tinyurl.com/ybrzx7s Ninja's own all #
• 09:16 @officialTila You so should do a parody of Twilight #
• 09:38 'The Many Styles of Illustration'-- writing the report now #
• 10:06 @Benjaminmadden Apparantly you are called a Hipster. lol #
• 11:50 Drama students get on my nerves. I just want them to shut up #
• 12:59 Pizza hut for lunch. :) #
• 15:37 zero motivation at all. Uch, so annoying #
• 15:46 @HeatherCobern I'm so so jealous #
• 15:53 Read this RT @joshmadden REACH OUT AND TOUCH FAITH… | JoshMadden bit.ly/7FcO7L #
• 15:55 @HeatherCobern at least your getting away somewhere #
• 15:57 I may as well head to work. I am not getting any thumbnails done here. So annoyed with myself #
• 17:07 I really dont want to be here. I am failling college, and i have to work. #
• 17:19 I really need to be doing college stuff. Total stressing myself out about it :/ #
• 17:26 I'm stressed about college, I'm stressed about work. I'm just going to quit both, cause I am obviously crap at them #
• 22:03 i wanna go home now. This is just not good. #
• 22:26 Makes me feel old when people so much younger than me are having kids. #
• 22:56 @officialTila kick it *shrugs* #

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I hate this.

I am having a bad day. I just want to go home and do college work, because I spent 8 hours in college today, and did nothing. I cried on my way to work. I haven't done that in months.

I feel like I am so bad at everything I do, or try to do. I'm sitting here at a work computer, blogging because I got here early, and I just want to cry. I feel so bad. I don't want to talk to people at college about it because all I get is 'at least you have a job'. At this point I don't care about anything.

I can't get time off work, and if I take anymore sick, I'll be sacked, and I really need this job. Which makes me feel even worse. How do I help myself? How do other people do it?

I need help, but everyone else is too busy and got better things to do than worry about me.

• 10:47 Happy Monday, though it's not really #
• 10:47 @mattjwillis lol. JEdward should have stayed. #
• 10:48 @officialTila At leasr you enjoy your job. You could work with me in a call centre. That really is bad. #
• 10:57 @tonyhawk @fearnecotton two of the bestest peoples together. Yay #
• 11:41 @Jennifalconer The only thing I know about cooking is how to put out the fire when I burn it. #
• 12:22 Twitter was green and pink, now its all reds and dark. Ooooohhhh!! lol #
• 12:30 Paramore- leave poor Hailey alone. So what? She died her hair blond. #
• 12:46 @DannyJohnJules lol. someone took offence? Think they need to get a grip. #
• 13:38 Harry Hill is just no funny. #
• 14:16 @officialTila Ouch. Technology seems to like ultimate fails like that. #
• 14:54 @JoelMadden What are the AMAs? #
• 14:55 @johnrobb77 have fun. That is a great place, wish I was there instead of rainy scotland #
• 15:02 haha. I am a total gimp. #
• 15:27 Says a lot that wrapping Shaun up in clingfilm was the most exciting part of the day. #
• 15:52 I am amused by Death Note today. Dunno why. 'Did you know that Shinigami like apples?' #
• 15:54 @sarahemadden aww. My sister loves the Tinkerbell movie. #
• 16:01 @Bevtoyou 'By the powers of Grey Skull'. lol I used to love He-Man. Especially his tiger #
• 16:03 @Bevtoyou lol. I had a toy of the tiger. It ended up living with a T-Rex and Barbie's horse. haha #
• 16:06 @Bevtoyou I had all of Tale Spin. lol. It was a Disney cartoon and had Baloo the bear driving a plane #
• 16:08 @Bevtoyou I think we sold them all at a car boot sale, or they went to the charity shop -.- #
• 16:16 @DCMABNIKKI I agree, that show should have been called Jack & Karen #
• 16:33 Listenin 2 Taintstick '6lbs of sound' #
• 17:23 @StephzillaNJ I'm guilty of that, but it is annoying, especially when you need to go #
• 17:28 Excuse me America, but Black Friday is the Friday before christmas #
• 17:31 @DCMAxQueen Our Black Friday is better, its THE best night out. Major piss ups everywhere #
• 17:35 @DCMAxQueen lol. we have no major holidays before christmas, but we still gets loads of sales. #
• 17:37 Death Note: Misa should be with Matsuda, not Light. #
• 17:44 @DCMAKimberly lol, I'm undecided about Mello. I am going through a total Death Note obsession thing again. That and Saiyuki #
• 17:50 @DCMAKimberly Yeah! Was a bit gutted with how they put this big romance story in it. But it was still good Still need to see the second part #
• 17:57 @XgcXspX my head does that too. Just twists things around #
• 19:46 busy night. Yawn #
• 20:29 I'm sorry Kat Von D. It looks like a 5 year old tried to draw you. -.- #
• 21:23 facebook, give me my account back. Thats the second time in one day. #
• 21:40 @GCTilla ok :) #
• 21:45 @AyshieMarie lol. I was gutted. I mean they even got their own action men and everything #
• 22:31 im tired. just had a 30 minute call. #
• 22:40 do i go home and draw, or watch Death Note #
• 22:48 Its cold outside. Can I just magically transport home? #
• 22:55 Misa from Death Note reminds me of Lirin from Saiyuki. Is that just me? #
• 23:12 Buuusss? Where are yoouu #

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Actually quite happy for a Monday.
Although I have spent all weekend watching and reading Death Note. I seriously am dreading the Hollywood remake of it. They are supposedly moving the story from Japan to LA. The fact that the story is set in Japan, and that that is a major factor throughout the plot. Stupid Hollywood, why can't you leave things alone. Its bad enough I can no longer think of anyone but Zac Efron playing Light, but then they say, he might not do that. Eugh.

Also, why am I the only person who thinks that Misa and Matsuda would have made a good couple, rather than Misa and Light. Both Misa and Matsuda are immature and childish in how they act. I think they'd have this understanding that Light doesn't have with Misa.

Anyways, if you are wondering why there is an absence of college mentioning in this blog, then that is because I have done sweet FA all day and all weekend. Talk about fail. I sat on Cafe World again *rolls eyes*. Well that and was reading stuff on Death Note and Saiyuki. Kinda obsessed with them both.

Get more Death Note on Friday. YAAAAASSSS!!!
I also get paid on Friday. YAAAAASSSS!!!!
And Aberdeen on Saturday. YAAAASSSSS!!!!

*Thats a lot of yass-ing*

*Also incidentally, there is someone called Misa Matsuda lol*

• 02:34 Top 3 weekly #lastfm artists: SS-Kaliert - 179. Redska - 17. KoЯn - 17. bit.ly/3x0VtF #
• 16:21 Channel 4? 3d doesn't work if your glasses are crap #
• 16:25 The Jonas brothers knicked Busted's 'Year 3000'!?! They Jonased all over it -.- #
• 16:26 'You got the beeeessssst of both worlds...' #
• 16:41 Found death note online anime. :) #
• 19:53 Spending the night watching the Death Note anime. Am I the only one who likes Misa? #
• 20:03 @benjaminmadden that just made me 'awwww!'. lol #
• 20:29 Is gonna do some drawings #
• 20:35 Billy is so soft. He is hiding beside me cause he hates the winds. There's gales outside. #
• 20:47 Go JEdward. They'd better get through #
• 20:51 @A7X_Bat_Angel John and Edward, two contestants from The X Factor. They get called JEdward #
• 20:54 7/10 of TTs are about X Factor. lol #
• 20:55 NNNOOOO!!!! Should have got rid of Olly. At least JEdward were entertaining #
• 21:04 Billy just bit me #
• 21:12 @benjaminmadden hope you didn't bet any money on them winning, then. #
• 21:33 @benjaminmadden 'bestier besties'?!? Benji, you make me lol #
• 21:43 @CallMeMrsMADDEN I did that, changed everything. Was a bit bored of stuff, lol #
• 21:50 @CallMeMrsMADDEN I know. I had that too. They are bugging me, so much #
• 23:24 There is such a thing as lolcode !?! en.wikipedia.org/wiki/LOLCODE that would make webdesign more fun. haha #
• 23:33 why are the britney porn people now tweeting me. PISS OFF!!!! Fucking arseholes #

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• 23:19 JEdward and their action men to win lol #

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• 11:48 Went 2 bank 2 c if i had a fiver 4 asdas 2day. I had >>10 instead #
• 15:21 sitting doing a random sketchbook drawing #
• 15:57 Eugh Twilight. Worst thing to happen to vampires since Angel from Buffy. #
• 17:52 Christmas is annoying me already, -.- #
• 18:00 @Joshmadden I do like Sonic Youth. Takes me back to High School. lol. #
• 18:34 @Benjaminmadden, better than I my night. The only thing epic is how much it fails. lol #
• 19:37 feel ill. Thanks soup from the canteen -.- #
• 19:43 @Bevtoyou i think it must have been there for too long or something Everyone else at my work has bought in takeout which makes me feel worse #
• 19:52 @BevtoyouThey did, but unless they wanted to clean up after my iffy stomach eating spicy food, their happy i didnt order #
• 20:03 @Bevtoyou Feeling a bit better now. Just want to go home, and for it to be the weekend #
• 22:34 Imma hungry. I want food. #
• 22:56 @AllieCupcake see i refuse to spend that money. My house is covered in my own paintings because I am such a skinflint #

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• 08:14 Up and at em. #
• 11:13 damn Cafe World. Quit distractin me from my work. Grrrr. In fact pretty much Facebook in general is distracting #
• 12:34 @GRANTCO1313 who wouldn't get the awesome-ness of Bad Brains O.o They were an amazing band. #
• 13:10 @GRANTCO1313 Really wish I could come and see your show. You have such skill. #
• 14:16 White chocolate covered Oreos= num num #
• 15:56 Great look at artists and graphics work- Central illustration www.centralillustration.com/na/na.php #
• 17:44 At work, and want to go home. Can't be bothered at all, I need a holiday to get college work done, and I cant. Its total stressing me #

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I was okay this morning, I did a lot of work (and failed a test- go me). But since I had food, I have been doing nothing apart from play CafeWorld on flaming Facebook. And its one of these things I always look and keep an eye on. Its just very addictive. Which is annoying when I need to be doing my sketch book for Graphic Design.

On that side of things, I am progressing with it every-so-slowly, which I suppose is better than nothing.


I guess. -.-

• 16:38 Going 2 work. Really could do with finishing college stuff at home tho. #
• 21:06 Actually a good night *touch wood* #
• 21:10 MCRmy Vs GCFam We kick ass. GCFam own all. Get well soon @NicoleRichie, we look after our own #
• 21:16 My milk carton has a cow called 'Daisy Dangler' on it. hahahaha. That is lol-some #
• 21:32 I need to learn German so I can read Pestpocken interviews and their website. #
• 21:35 Love Total Chaos. Really need to see them live #

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Was pretty productive again today at college. When I say productive, it means I was working on my project all the time I was in college. I stayed away from the computers, so I wasn't distracted by facebook, or twitter. I mean I waste all my free time, on stupid things such as them. Its always FarmVille and Bejewelled that I spend ages on. Don't get me wrong, I love playing stupid games, but its horrible when I know I have more important things I should be doing. I am spending ages on my thumbnails, which is me being behind. I was supposed to be on developement, so I'm a stage behind. But I am putting a hell of a lot of work on it now, which is something I wasn't doing before.

In the money front, I was budgeting my £14 for the rest of the week (till I get paid next friday) and my dad said 'I can give you £20 if you want'. And I thought 'woo hoo' more money to spend -.- That is not the way this is supposed to go. Let me budget, and I can make money last, but give me more, and I'll just spend it all on nothing, probably. *rolls eyes* I mean I have already had a loaner of Paul, a mate a college, and I really don't want to be owing more people money. Its not like I don't pay it back, its just I hate having to resort to borrowing. I am in such a mess this month. I am writing out an action plan for when my wages come back, and who I owe money to.

I usually get paid £700ish, so I pay £80 for digs
£39.for phone
£50 for nationwide
£50 for Mint
£20 to Paul
£20 to dad, if i take it.
So thats about £260. Which is ok, if I can do that.

Big If.